Sunday, November 23, 2014


My life has completely changed in the last 2 years.
I was in Ethiopia two years ago, when I last posted.
I'm obviously not there anymore... Things changed. And that's okay. If I had stayed I wouldn't be anywhere near where I am today.
I left Ethiopia 3 short months after I got there. My life was changed. I miss those kids every day.
Since then, I have had 5 jobs.
I am currently trying balancing 2 jobs, my family, a social life, and a boyfriend.
The last 2 years have been crazy. Both in good and bad ways. I could say that these have been 2 of the best years of my life. And at the same time, too much has happened so I can't say that.
I went to Ethiopia, with a mission and a purpose. While I was there, things changed. What I had planned on doing didn't happen. I changed my mission to something completely different. I loved my time there. I did things I didn't think I would. I experienced things I never thought I would. After a month, different thoughts than my original plan began to come to mind. I prayed and prayed, trying to figure out if it was Satan calling me home so soon, or God. It was God. God called me back home. 3 months after I arrived. (The original plan was 6-9 months.) Honestly though, I felt like I failed. I felt like I was going to disappoint everyone who supported me moving across seas. I didn't tell anyone besides my parents and 1 close friend that I was coming home. Surprising people was fun. But then the questions as to why I was home so soon came up and I think that I honestly dodged most of them... I guess that was the good thing about going to youth as my first big outing. I am not upset that I went and didn't do or achieve what I expected. I went and God blew my expectations out of the water. I learned lessons. Just not anything I expected. But I guess that's the best part of about God, right?

He always does the thing you least expect.
God knew.
God knew where I would be now.
He knew the lessons I needed for now.

Change is good.

And that coming from me should mean something. I hate change. If I lived life by my plans, instead of God's.... Man, I don't even want to know where I'd be. I'm so thankful for change, and for God's plan.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God.      Romans 12:2