Sunday, April 29, 2012


I'm coming to the end of a stage of life.
My high school life will be done in about 23 days. 
I graduate May 20.
And what do you know?
My whole plan has been completely changed in the past few weeks. 

My plan for the past few months/year has been to go to Sierra in the fall, do the basic courses, and when I was ready, transfer to Sac State and apply for the nursing program to become an Emergency Room Nurse. 

Not anymore. 

I don't think I'm gonna go to school..
I think I'm gonna get a job, and start saving all the money I get and turn around and go to Africa for a few months. 

If you have known me for any length of time, like really known me.. you would know that Africa has always been on my heart. And about a year ago, I thought that Tsehay and Fekadu coming home was my Africa dream coming true. 

But now? 


I have a new dream.
Or is it the same dream?
I want to go help out at an orphanage. 
I want to visit Africa.
And not just for some short 2 week trip or whatever.
I want to go
I want to build relationships with the people, with the children. 

My dad says he has a connection, and I know he does.
This would be super exciting to see it all work out.
Until then, I will keep meditating on Jesus, and try to find out what he really wants me to do with my life! 

James 1:27 says to look after the worlds orphans and widows... 

Is this my calling?

More to come.

Fast Day 37-40...WAY LATE!

So I have had the last few of these typed out for a while, but haven't posted them.. Instead of posting 4 different ones, I just combined.

Fast Day 37 
Sunday; February 19

Forgiveness is a major struggle for me. I don't like it when something wrong is done to me (who does?) and I don't want to let it go. I hold grudges, and I can hold them for years. But on the other hand, if I did something wrong, I hate it when people don't forgive me! It just annoys me and I don't feel like I deserve it just because I apologized. Over the past few months, God has really placed forgiveness towards those in my past on my heart. I have been trying so hard to forgive them. For some people it came easier for others. I am still working on forgiving some. And I am working on not holding grudges anymore. 

"Forgive and forget" is what they tell you. 
I don't think forgetting it will do you any good. 

My view is that just because you forgive someone does not mean you have to trust them again. Forgive everyone, trust only those who earn your trust back. 

God forgave us. 
Why should we not forgive others?

Luke 6:37 "..forgive, and you will be forgiven." 

Dear Jesus, 
Thank you for forgiving us. Please help us to forgive others. 

In Your Name we pray, 

Fast Day 38
Monday; February 20
Peer Pressure

1 Corinthians 15:33 "Do not be deceived: Bad company ruins good morals."

Peer pressure sucks. 
The world puts such a burden for teenagers to fit in. 

Why fit in when you can stand out? I like that idea better. 
Be a light to those in the darkness. Don't sink to their level.

Lord, help us not give in to what the world has to offer, for we know that you have more to offer than we could ever imagine. Amen.

Fast Day 39
Tuesday; February 21
"Fake" Friends

Don't surround yourself with people who are only pretending to be your friends. 
It's as simple as that. 

Father God, give us wisdom, and discernment, so we know who to trust. Help us break off unhealthy friendships, and give us the right mind in seeing who we need to keep close. Amen.

Fast Day 40
Wednesday, February 22


Dear Lord Jesus, 
Thank you so much for taking our burdens. Thank you for making us new. Thank you for giving us life. Thank you for choosing us. Thank you.. Thank you.. Thank you..

The 40 Day fast is now over. Blog will continue, but more about life and Jesus and the way he is showing himself to me, than just certain topics each day. 

Until next time...